This is the first Valentines I spent separated. It was only on this holiday that I realized the gravity of my decision. Not that I’m regretting it or having second thoughts, it was just a realization that I am alone. When I say alone, I mean romantically alone. I know I have my children, family and friends. This is the usual line I get when I even mention that I’m alone or depressed or sad. Well meaning friends but all the same a brush off of some sort.
What should I be complaining about right? I have 3 beautiful kids. I have a great job and I’m able to support my kids financially or I try my best to.
The thing is being lonely is real. You will always look for a partner or a companion. It’s the natural way of thinking.
I try not to dwell on it too much but I think my circumstance is just a tiny bit unique in that I built a wall so high that even I have a hard time tearing it down. I must seem aloof, hard to talk to or just plain uninteresting. The right answer to all of this is that I just need to give myself time. I guess.
It’s so odd that it was only when I found myself single again that I’m more open to people but have so limited means to actually get to know more people. I know, I know what a conundrum!
So I may be “alone” but I’m hanging in there. Hoping there’s more and giving importance to the only people that matter most to me, my children.
After all this, you can imagine that my Valentines was a bit depressing. Until, that is I received a care package from Robinsons Selections that had some of my favorite chocolates. Second to receiving gifts from my kids, it was the highlight of my day.
In a perfect world, I’d be one of the many people I saw on my Facebook wall being gifted by their significant other with a bouquet of flowers or stacks of chocolates. Just a couple of years back I was one of those people but not everything that glitters is gold.
As you can see, I’ve shared way too much of myself. Sandwiched in between my product features, events and reviews are posts like this. This is where I can float what ever I want out there and not have to seriously think about who is reading this and what they would think. If I have reached you somehow and you’d love a share, please feel free to comment or message me. <3